Do I have the same intensity as Devahuti?

SB 3.25.7 — Devahūti said: I am very sick of the disturbance caused by my material senses, for because of this sense disturbance, my Lord, I have fallen into the abyss of ignorance.

• Am I sick of the disturbance caused by my attachment to righteousness and fairness, attachment for material prosperity and emotional security?
• Do I realize that more mind gets engrossed and disturbed by events connected to my attachments, harder it becomes for me to take shelter of Srimad Bhagavatam, The Deities, and devotees?
• The anger, dissatisfaction, and frustration that develops in the heart makes it harder to take shelter of shravanam- nothing penetrates inside
• So are these attachments really worth it when compared to the larger goal?
• There is no profit in holding on to these things

SB 3.25.8 — Your Lordship is my only means of getting out of this darkest region of ignorance because You are my transcendental eye, which, by Your mercy only, I have attained after many, many births.

• How long am I going to depend on my strength and intelligence to figure my life out and navigate through challenges?
• My intelligence is material and imperfect, it can only see things materially. I need to surrender and depend upon Krishna , He is my Well wisher and He is my eye too- no my intelligence 

SB 3.25.9 — You are the Supreme Personality of Godhead, the origin and Supreme Lord of all living entities. You have arisen to disseminate the rays of the sun in order to dissipate the darkness of the ignorance of the universe.

SB 3.25.10 — Now be pleased, my Lord, to dispel my great delusion. Due to my feeling of false ego, I have been engaged by Your māyā and have identified myself with the body and consequent bodily relations.

• Be pleased with me also My Lord, I do not have any determination, any attraction, I am disturbed by what is happening around me, I do not wish to be disturbed anymore, do not wish to be distracted anymore, please guide me so I can serve you sincerely and give up the material conception and come closer to the spiritual conception.

To Cross Over: Become detached from wealth and family

SB 3.25.39-40 — Thus the devotee who worships Me, the all-pervading Lord of the universe, in unflinching devotional service, gives up all aspirations to be promoted to heavenly planets or to become happy in this world with wealth, children, cattle, home or anything in relationship with the body. I take him to the other side of birth and death.

• unflinching devotional service
• engaging oneself in full devotional service
• accepting the Supreme Lord as all in all
• if one thus serves with unflinching faith, then one has achieved all other opulences and performed all other duties!
• (Above points from Srila Prabhupada's purport to this verse)
• gives up aspirations to be promoted to heavenly planets
• can I give up my aspiration to become a popular person, a well-known person, a person with a following, living in opulence, flying around being known as a jet-setter
• All these desires are blocking me from crossing over to Krishna's side
• Serving Krishna and His devotees with unflinching faith is the greatest opulence, none of these are worth comparing to the Greatest Jewel of service to Krishna and His devotees
• or become happy in this world with wealth, children, cattle, home or anything in relationship with the body
I did not learn my lessons, tried very hard to be happy with family life but the happiness was never there. Because I did not learn then Krishna has now taken away that chance from me. Am I still going to hanker for that or am I going to move forward in developing love and service towards Krishna and His devotees?



I tried to hold on to happiness in family life but it was constantly slipping away from my hands

• My attachment to money: Learned a wonderful thing from a gentleman in a Gita class I was teaching on Thursday, Feb 8th, - he told me when we know we are not the Proprietors of our wealth, but Krishna is then we become peaceful and we learn to let go. Krishna is the Proprietor of all my wealth and whatever anyone owes me as well then we become extremely peaceful. Krishna is also the Supreme Controller ( mayadhyaksena prakriti, sarva loka maheshwaram) and the Supreme Well wisher of all living entities. While I do the needful in wealth management, I need to rest in great peace with the fact that Krishna is going to take care of me and in the past, he has taken care of me and is taking care of me in very tangible and intangible ways.

SB 3.25.41 — The terrible fear of birth and death can never be forsaken by anyone who resorts to any shelter other than Myself, for I am the almighty Lord, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, the original source of all creation, and also the Supreme Soul of all souls.

Why are my name, fame, prestige, wealth, popularity, righteousness more important to me than the shelter of the Lord? These things are not going to let me reach the Lotus Feet of the Supreme Lord, in fact, these will pull me away from the Lord.

I sincerely pray at the Lotus Feet of the Vaishnavas that I am able to overcome my intense attachment to these things and serve the Lord sincerely with a sincere pure heart of spreading knowledge about Him and knowledge given by Him to everyone on whatever platform I go to