Do I have the same intensity as Devahuti?

SB 3.25.7 — Devahūti said: I am very sick of the disturbance caused by my material senses, for because of this sense disturbance, my Lord, I have fallen into the abyss of ignorance.

• Am I sick of the disturbance caused by my attachment to righteousness and fairness, attachment for material prosperity and emotional security?
• Do I realize that more mind gets engrossed and disturbed by events connected to my attachments, harder it becomes for me to take shelter of Srimad Bhagavatam, The Deities, and devotees?
• The anger, dissatisfaction, and frustration that develops in the heart makes it harder to take shelter of shravanam- nothing penetrates inside
• So are these attachments really worth it when compared to the larger goal?
• There is no profit in holding on to these things

SB 3.25.8 — Your Lordship is my only means of getting out of this darkest region of ignorance because You are my transcendental eye, which, by Your mercy only, I have attained after many, many births.

• How long am I going to depend on my strength and intelligence to figure my life out and navigate through challenges?
• My intelligence is material and imperfect, it can only see things materially. I need to surrender and depend upon Krishna , He is my Well wisher and He is my eye too- no my intelligence 

SB 3.25.9 — You are the Supreme Personality of Godhead, the origin and Supreme Lord of all living entities. You have arisen to disseminate the rays of the sun in order to dissipate the darkness of the ignorance of the universe.

SB 3.25.10 — Now be pleased, my Lord, to dispel my great delusion. Due to my feeling of false ego, I have been engaged by Your māyā and have identified myself with the body and consequent bodily relations.

• Be pleased with me also My Lord, I do not have any determination, any attraction, I am disturbed by what is happening around me, I do not wish to be disturbed anymore, do not wish to be distracted anymore, please guide me so I can serve you sincerely and give up the material conception and come closer to the spiritual conception.